I am sure that all Moms must ask themselves occasionally: “I wonder why my child does that?” But for those of you who are the parent of a child on the spectrum, it is a question that we frequently ask ourselves… I know I do.
That is was why I was excited when I read a review of The Reason I Jump, which is written by a then-thirteen-year-old boy with autism, Naoki Higashida. Naoki uses an alphabet grid to construct phrases and thoughts that he previously was unable to express.
“Great,” I thought, “I might get some insight into why Ryan exhibits some of his behaviors. Perhaps, there might be some similarities.”
So, I read the book and found it fascinating. The format of the book is that Naoki answers questions he is frequently asked about autism. Some of the questions which were very relevant to me included:
Why do you do things that you shouldn’t even when you’ve been told a million times not to?
Naoki explains that often he has forgotten about being reprimanded about topic previously and feels terrible that he has, yet again, done what he’s been asked not to do.
I see the same pattern with Ryan. At times, he will exhibit behaviors that he knows are not acceptable, but repeats it again and again. He knows he should not, and he is remorseful that this has occurred.
What are flashback memories like?
Naoki tells us that he has lots of pleasant memories, but flashback memories are always bad ones. Out of the blue, Naoki may burst into tears or start panicking, which he explains is because the memory causes him to feel the same helpless feeling that he experienced then.
Recently, I wrote a blog asking Ryan the question: tell me what you remember growing up. Ryan related many negative memories and, in fact, no positive ones. I couldn’t understand why he only focused on the negative, but reading this answer gave me great insight.
Naoki says in his Afterword that he used to ask himself: what will happen to me if my autism isn’t cured? Although he used to worry quite a bit about his future, today he says: “If all of you can grasp the truth about us, we are handed a ray of hope. However hard an autistic life is, however sad it can be, so long as there is hope we can stick at it. And when the light of hope shines on all of this world, then our future will be connected with your future. That’s what I want, above all.”
That, too, is what I want, for Ryan as well as for all children and adults with disabilities.
I recently found a memo written by Dr. Barber in the early 90s that reflects her commitment to these principles. I wanted to share some excerpts here; who better to tell you of our mission than Dr. Barber herself?
As we enter our second week of school, I find myself a bit nostalgic as I think back to Ryan’s time in school. It’s hard to believe that it has been five years since he graduated high school! I truly believe that one of the reasons he was successful in his school career was my willingness to commit to working with his teachers.
I also believed it was important to meet weekly with the teacher(s) to discuss his progress and challenges. This assured consistency between home and school – a critical variable for Ryan. Looking back, I drove to his school in blizzards as well as frightening early morning meetings at 7:00 AM! I was fortunate that my best friend, Jeanne, attended as Ryan’s advocate. She was great support. I would encourage all parents to take a friend to team meetings. So much is being discussed and it’s helpful to have someone taking notes.
Welcome back to the start of this 17-18 school year! Judging by the smiles on your faces, I’m sure that you all had a great summer. I’m really looking forward to the positive changes that our PBIS team will bring about this year, and I wanted to share a few thoughts of my own.

As this past Sunday was Friendship Day in the US, I wanted to share a few of my thoughts about friendship. Friendship can be a challenge for children on the spectrum. From my personal experience, Ryan sadly had no friends during his years at school. I often thought, “Wouldn’t it be wonderful if someone would invite him to their birthday party?” Unfortunately, that never happened. Ryan preferred the company of adults. I think that was because the adults would take the time to listen to him when he would speak in a rapid manner and would wait patiently for him to him to formulate his thoughts. I think that these adults recognized the importance of kindness more so than Ryan’s peers.
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